Small regret

Tuesday, 2 June 2015 06:55 pm
kila: (reddrop)
 I hate when I loose words.

Something I have written on the internet was changed, or all the whole space in which it rested was "cancelled", unrelated people keep on throwing away my papers and 'cleaning up' the texts I have on the room's furnishings.


It's driving me crazy. I don't know why, I always took myself to be the kind of person living in reality (and in sync) with temporary things and their perishing. I for one thing never feel let down when flowers wilt or when my dresses tear.
But I cannot stand it. Names, silly songs, notes. Whatever words flee me take away a small piece of the strength with which I hold onto things.

I feel as troubled as I can get, upon loosing track of what I once put down.
And it is the kind of unrest that cannot be dulled and mystified by wine.

So, I curse my self for not being the paranoid me and keeping all the titles I used along with other configurations in some manner of notes, I curse The Uncle for only saving a copy of the front page, knowing not of me potentially having friends and I passionately curse Dw for being a silly asshole on me.

...You may say, I complain out of proportion; but it is just priorities. An event like this is devastating, for depression, starvation, my failure and the world's evils I do not care! *sigh*
I'm going to have to forget I have a dw for a while. - For self-preservation.
Or, on the other hand, I'll have to write a lot.

It's deafening.
(The silent scream overwhelming my whole presence.)

You should see my face right now.

Tuesday, 9 December 2014 01:16 pm
kila: (depth (for "myself"))
I used to have a livejournal (or should I say journals?) but. I was off internet for some years (actually I was off life, but whatever) and LiveJournal was suddenly kind of... modern. I was like, LiveJournal, you suck! and got a Dreamwidth. So the origin story.
I write blogs on Hatena and love Hatena all the way but it seems like for fan stuff, you have to have a livejournal base, go lj style.

(By the way, that dastardly lj was not only different, but also refusing my name. For no feasible reason, I tell you. Go and crucify yourself, LiveJournal of today..!)


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- What I Love -

people with glasses


Yuuko-san's fashion sense

Takamura Suoh's devotion to Nokoru-sama


Taisho-early Showa settings

the openings of Master Keaton, Uta Koi and Kazemakase Tsukikage Ran

curious audiovisual style of Mononoke

how Kaori Yuki-sensei never has a real villain and rarely ever has a truly heroic character

the rare instances of good doujinshi

the stylised wholesomeness of Lupin the Third: Mine Fujiko to Iu Onna


magpie&mr. right

translation work


the sour "sting-y", and barely bitter, red wine

shopping in antique book stores

browsing 'appropriate' japanese magazine pages

morning bird orchestras

devising unlikely outfits


the sea


white roses

being alive

(to watch anime, of course)
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